At this time, it’s been ~50 days since I arrived at Germany. I try to write about my feelings every now and then because before I leave Iran, it was a big question for me that how people feel after leaving their home and going to another country to live for a long time.
Before directly writing about my feelings, I prefer to write about my daily routine: I wake up normally at a time between 9 and 12. Quickly eat a simple breakfast, usually bread, cheeses, and honey, and go to the university. Then start to study, mostly for machine learning and cryptography courses. If it’s Monday or Tuesday, I also go to the swimming pool at 12. Then I participate in the classes and study more at least until 19, at most until 22, and then return home. On the way back home, I may buy some foodstuffs to cook something, or go to Chez Yaren to eat döner. Sometimes, I may go to a bar to drink a beer. Then return home and while cooking, I talk or smoke with my flatmates and then eat the dinner and go to bed. Just a simple routine.
Sometimes, when I’m walking at the city center, I suddenly feel lonely. I wish I could speak German (Deutsch?). Even if I don’t want to talk to native people, I can’t feel like a part of this society when I know I can’t talk to them. I haven’t had that feeling before living in here. Also, this is something I’ve started to feel just recently, right after I settled in my new room. Feels like Maslow was right about humans’ needs. 😀
To summarize, sometimes, I’m very motivated and want to overcome every problem like a real warrior, and sometimes just feel weak and fragile.
By the way, in this week my desk, chair, and closet will arrive. I’m so excited that I’m finally furnishing my room and there will be something other than my bed in it. In the near future, I’ll also buy a rug and maybe some shelves.