As I said before, I’m just trying to not avoid failures, but to embrace them as a part of process. I really feel like I’m developing an invaluable skill. When everything seems not right, it helps a lot to look for your micro-achievements and celebrate them.
Yesterday, I asked one of my old questions from the bartender. I wanted to ask that everytime I went to that bar, but just couldn’t do so. It felt really good that I finally did. Also, I asked a random guy at the gym about the difference between “Tschüss” and “Tschau”. His answer really didn’t matter to me. I just wanted to overcome my fear of talking to a random person. XD
Also, I can see that how comparing myself to other people can easily get me down. I’m happy that I’m finally learning to stop comparing myself with other people. Of course, I had known that this behavior is not good, but there’s always a long distance between theory and practice.
How do I feel generally? Sometimes, I’m tired, sad, fragile, homesick, and afraid of the future. Sometimes, I’m full of energy, happy, and tough. It depends on a lot of things. Would I still come here if I return to 3 months ago? Of course. Apart from Iran’s conditions, I left there to see the world, become wiser, and grow up; Like how Bjorn left his family to live in the wild. I think all of this pain is just some part of the process and although it hurts me, I like it.
Patiently waiting for a new post! 🙂