Oh God, I feel sooooooooooooooooooooooo tired.
I fucked up my routine this week. I had a bad sleep schedule, a weird diet, no breakfast, almost no water, a lot of coffee. I did nothing meaningful. For the whole time, I was just smoking and scrolling Twitter. I wasn’t even paying attention to the professor when I was in a class. I didn’t even spend much time reading the paper that was assigned to me.
I have my own problems:
- My contract starts one month later than I expected, meaning that I can save less money than I expected.
- Because of the language courses, I had to return home late. It means:
- I had no time to do workout, which resulted in me getting more depressed.
- My daily routine was messed up, and I had to devise a new one.
- My first task at work turned out to be too hard. So, I had to put in much more effort to handle it.
- I have to coordinate my teams in the Security course and ICPC training.
While struggling to handle these problems (and probably some more problems I don’t remember), I encountered some interpersonal issues. My relation with a friend had got a little bit toxic and it was exhausting me to death. Another friend was separating from her some years long fiance, and I had to be there for her. Two flatmates were feeling so annoyed of another flatmate, and they had no one except me to talk about it.
Ah… It’s so fucking exhausting. I wish I could get back to the days when I was working in Sotoon, doing nothing but work and having fun with friends. Well… I think lied. I really don’t want to get back to those days. I like this situation even though it’s hard.
I like it and hate it at the same time. I’ll just try harder to get back into my normal manageable situation. I’ll fix my sleep schedule and then my workout and diet, hoping that everything will be fine.