Coinfidence? I think NOT

I hereby announce that I’m going to modify my personality according to the change in my environment.

I’ve always been too humble and it was a useful trait back in Iran, but I think it won’t work here. That’s based on my experiences and what an older friend of mine told me. Thus, I think I’m going to brag about my experiences a little more. Maybe a good word to describe my goal is to become a showman.

Also, I feel that showing the smallest amount of weakness is not a good thing in here. People judge you. They compete with you. They compare themselves to you. You shouldn’t let them think they’re better than you! (Homework: Think about the reason of the last sentence from my PoV) So, just to mention some examples of my behaviors that I’m going to change, consider the followings:

• I easily smile to people and also laugh at the slightest jokes. I think people misinterpret that as a sign of weakness, instead of a sign of openness. Or maybe they misinterpret openness as a sign of weakness. Doesn’t matter.
• Also, since when I remember, any time I see someone is getting upset because (e.g.) of thinking I am better than him, I immediately start to show humility. I shouldn’t do this. In the next situation like this, when that person is starting to get sad, I’ll try to say something to make him even sadder. Just as an exercise. :-“
• When someone asks me about how I’m doing with my courses, I tell them with honesty that I’m under a lot of pressure to handle my workload. The next time, I’ll just say “Oh the courses! Yeah! They’re easier than what I thought. I don’t see why other students think these courses are hard. Even a carrot can understand what the professor is saying.” =))
• Also, I avoid looking people in the eye. That’s an extreme sign of weakness and I’m going to stop acting like that.

Maybe, the summary of my post is that I’m going to prioritize my picture in the mind of other people over their feelings. I might look a little cold-hearted, but that’s my idea of perfect behavior in this environment. All in all, I can say my relationships with other people used to have only two forms in my mind; They were either stranger or friend. That’s why I cared about almost everyone’s feelings. But apparently, it doesn’t work like that in here. There’s no reason for me to care about the feelings of just an acquaintance.

Let’s see how this experiment goes. If this antithesis works, I’m gonna remove Germany from the list of my possible final destinations for ever. But if I’ll have to make a synthesis in order for it to work, I’ll reconsider that.