Back then when I was studying for the entrance exam of Master’s degree (is it called like this? I don’t care), I developed a habit of self-destruction to increase my performance. If I scored 95% in a sample exam, I started to balme myself for that lost 5%. Its reason should be obvious. By doing so, I felt some amount of stress which encouraged me to study more.
I saw it worked for that exam. So, I decided to keep that habit afterward. I started to use it in everything. In the workplace, in the swimming, and in everything else. Surprisingly, it worked again. At least if we ignore my mental and physical health. =)
Anyway, I think that habit is backfiring now. It doesn’t motivate me anymore. Maybe, it was suitable only for short-term goals, but definitely not for my current situation. The problem is that it’s not as easy as pressing a push button. It’s a habit, and it has rooted in me.
I feel like Shifu when Tai Lung returned and he had to fight with him. =))