MaGaroo Writes

I’m sitting here in my room in the last lights of the day. Having the rainy weather outside and my heater’s warmth inside feels so cozy. The night before yesterday, I suddenly felt so sick. So, except for two hours, I slept the whole day yesterday. I had unintentionally left my phone on airplane mode….

I couldn’t stop smoking. On the first day, which was yesterday, I reduced it to 4 or 5. Today, I’ve smoked 5 by now. Even though I haven’t stopped it completely, I’m already under a huge mental pressure. I overthink about the slightest acts and behaviors. I interpret the slightest things in ways that bother…

I had tried to stop smoking a lot of times, but I failed every single time. Now, I’m obviously seeing its effects on my life and health. It’s bothering me in various ways: I see these effects and still can’t stop smoking. It’s ridiculous. Ok I will try again. After running out of tobacco, I…

Today, I received an email from US embassy. It starts with this paragraph: We are pleased to inform you the administrative processing required for your case was completed on xth Aug and we are ready to proceed with your visa application. Of course I knew one day I’m going to receive such an email. However, I supposed…

I don’t know if I had mentioned it or not, but I returned to Iran for a small vacation, which of course didn’t end up as small as I expected. I arrived exactly two weeks ago. At this point, I think I had to write a lot more blog posts about it. It’s hard to…

Yesterday, I accidentally cooked more food than necessary. So, I gave a little bit of it to my roommate and his friend. I really loved their reaction after their first taste. They liked it so much and at that moment I thought of two things:

I have a skill in communicating with Iranian people. I can give them the feeling of being actively listened to. I can earn their trust within the first few interactions. I can easily make them talk to me about their deepest fears and discomforts. It was a common pattern that whenever my friends were sad,…

I don’t know if I had mentioned it in an earlier post or not. Some time ago, I created a list of the basic things I had to do in here but had avoided them. This procrastination had made my life awful. It was full of stress. Those were very basic things, like registering for…

I’m so tired, so I’ll make this one short. Here are some facts: That’s it for now.

Sometimes, I get a little disappointed and think everything in my life sucks. I’m speaking about my life as an almost alone student at Germany. But deep down I know that I’ve had some progress. I think it’s important to be thankful in order to be able to trust in the process and don’t give…